There are these seconds in our lives where we catch ourselves in perfect moment of happiness.
I’ve had a stressful fortnight…actually a stressful year that started with a blood clot that took 6 months to improve, going off the pill (cause it can cause blood clots) mixed with blood thinners saw my cycle return to the horrendous ways of my early 20’s. I’d rather not go into detail but contemplate the embarrassment that comes whilst wearing 2 Super Pads and still finding the blood rush down your legs while standing at the photocopier in the office. Unfortunately for some women this is normal…for me this is normal.
Then I had a case of a horrendous cough which the doctors thought was whooping cough and quarantined me until the test results came back ….guess what it wasn’t.
Then I got mumps- ironically the year I got healthy with exercise and food is the year my body revolts and decides to go into a spaz of constant illness.
I have been extremely stressed this year….about health and about money (yep no sick leave left) and it was only Friday afternoon that I truly realised that this year is nearly over.
I looked back at pictures of last Christmas and realised how different I look. I took a moment and realised how different I AM.
I have found hope, friendship and encouragement in my writing.
I am 9 kilos off doing my Trash the Dress photo shoot with my pal Sarah.
I have a husband and a dog that love me insanely and the difference between this year and last year is I now know why I am lovable and that I am deserving of love.
I AM going away with Chris at the end of next year and babies will come along I truly believe this.
See hope is a great and wonderful thing…it allows the positivity to remain in our lives and when we get too dragged down about stress and money hope is the thing that allows us to see the perfect moments that would other wise pass us by.
Tonight Chris came home from work having just worked a 14 hour day. He sat next to me on the 2 seater lounge and cuddled me tight, Molly jumped up on our laps and snuggled in as well. Me and my family snuggled up tight, no TV, no noise, no words just PERFECTION.
<Linking up with the beautiful Jess at Essentially Jess for IBOT>