I wrote a blog a few months ago about having to buy sneakers in order to start my whole exercise regime. What I never told anybody was that the sneakers I ended up buying cost me $19.99 from Big W.
$20 that’s all the faith that I had in my self. I literally remember thinking “I shouldn’t waste too much on sneakers”. Why? Because I was certain that I was going to fail. I was certain that this time would be like every other time. What I didn’t bank on was 1 thing.
This time I WAS DIFFERENT.
This time I ignored my excuses.
This time I recognised my pain but pushed through it.
This time I realised my self worth and realised that I deserved to be healthy.
I still have a 17cm blood clot in my left leg, the doctors are sorting it out, working out how to get rid of it. I still have pain and swelling EVERY day but I don’t dwell on it. Pain is our bodies way of telling us that something isn’t right. My pain serves as a reminder of my limitations but I’ve learnt when you can’t beat them…. work around them.
People are noticing the changes in my appearance. That feels good.
My neck feels like it’s growing, I’m back to doing and planning. I’m cleaning and baking and cooking and recognising that sometimes I need extra rest and my leg needs elevation and not allowing myself to feel guilty about time spent in bed. Being healthy is taking care of yourself and rest is a big part of that for me at the moment.
I took a 20 minute shower the other day….there was a time when I couldn’t stand in one spot for 20 minutes (2 minute mad showers were awesome for the water bill) and as I stood there and let the water wash over me I forgave myself for allowing things to be so difficult for so long. I wasn’t ready then. I am killing it now.
$20 sneakers….best investment I’ve ever made.
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